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Springtime

TILT (14/01/10) waiting for spring
I wrote this post a year ago on my private blog and it seems so fitting to post it once again…so many of my thoughts are the same and this could have been written today. Only this spring we are excitedly awaiting the birth of our precious little boy, who is due in less than 4 weeks! Spring is such a poignant season, isn’t it? New life, new beginnings, the warm breeze rustling in the air, promising restoration after sometimes very hard winters. The Lord is so good to give us spring.

Spring 2009

As many of you may know that this has been a very difficult winter for me. We miscarried Baby Sita, I have had some health issues that involved a lot of depression and fatigue. Many of my days have consisted in taking one hour at a time, and learning how to truly rest and trust.

Who is among you that feareth the LORD, that obeyeth the voice of his servant, that walketh in darkness, and hath no light? let him trust in the name of the LORD, and stay upon his God.”
I have been blessed by the help that has surrounded me and the mercies of the Lord at this time of my life.

“My beloved spake, and said unto me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.

For, lo, the winter is past, the rain is over and gone;

The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds is come, and the voice of the turtle is heard in our land;

The fig tree putteth forth her green figs, and the vines with the tender grape give a good smell. Arise, my love, my fair one, and come away.

I have loved Song of Solomon for many years now. The passage above has had a particular sweetness to me, and never so much as now. When I was courting my beloved husband we would write back and forth to each other (as well as long phone conversations and weekend visits). These were the days before email. These letters were very precious. We were to be married in the spring. And I remember S saying to me as it grew closer. “It is springtime, time to build a nest”. On the back of his letters he would write a portion of these verses. “Rise up my love, my fair one and come away, for the lo the winter is past, the rain is over and gone….Arise, my love, my fair one and come away”. Of course as a young bride to be this was very sweet to my heart.
But these verses reach far deeper in my heart and strike a strong cord within me this season as well. This hard winter of darkness and doubts, trials and tribulations has had many tears for me. But, the harbingers of spring are appearing. The sun is shining again. We are beginning to feel the warmth of it on our shoulders just a bit as we step outside. I hear our new baby chicks chirping in the kitchen as I write. Surely, the spring is very close. So, in my heart I am longing for my Beloved Jesus to say to me, “Rise up my love, for lo the winter in your heart is over, the rain of trials is gone…it is springtime for your heart now as well. Time for sweet communion and the light of my grace to pour with warmth over your heart. It is a time of loves, a time for refreshment and quiet peace in your soul. Come away in secret communion with your Heavenly Husband.”
As I have posted before we have a vineyard nearby which each time we go into a particular part of town we see. It is a beautiful spot and we love to watch the changes in this place with each season. We watch with eagerness for the first shoots of green, the sprigs of spring upon these vines..then the beautiful lustre of summertime growth, the grapes appearing and then the harvest. In the fall and winter then the vines are cut way back and there appears a season of deadness. How can these vines every bear fruit again? But alas, the spring comes again..”The fig tree putteth forth her green figs, and the vines with the tender grape give a good smell.”

So today, as the sun is shining and spring is coming very soon, may our hearts also feel the warmth of the Son’s rays in our souls…reviving, refreshing, restoring us with His love.

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The Promise of Life

happy mother kissing baby boy in water
A little over a year ago, I lost a little child.  A child that never had a chance to see the light of day, but that the Lord has prepared to go straight to glory.  A child that we will never know on this earth, but has joined his 3 other siblings, awaiting us in heaven.  It was a week of enjoyment with the family on vacation, but filled with sorrow and pain as well.  Darkness, depression, and yet clinging to faith the the Lord would change our mourning for joy one day…

I am over at guest posting today over at Raising Homemakers.  Join me over there for the rest of my post!


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